I’m sure we’ve all had to unplug a cable box or two in our lifetime so you can probably relate to the picture shown above. This picture perfectly describes what I had to do to get back to where I wanted to be. I needed to unplug myself from some things for a little bit so that I could reset and start working to my full potential again. Life threw me a few curve balls all at once and I wasn’t really sure how to handle them so I ended up letting go of everything that I was working on or thinking about. I was hurting and I felt helpless because there was nothing that I could do to relieve the pain that my loved ones were dealing with and I honestly didn’t know how to offer support without being emotional.
As much as I wanted to get back to my Mrs. Accountabilitee blogs and videos I just didn’t have it in me. To this day I still have a few drafts saved from blog posts that I started, but couldn’t finish. I started to question my purpose as my desire to work on things and determination deteriorated. I felt like a failure for giving up on something that I really loved even if it was temporary. When I finally felt like it had been too long since I posted a blog or video I felt the need to push myself back into it. I tried to convince myself that I was feeling better, but that still didn’t work. It wasn’t until I was standing in front of Niagara Falls about 5 weeks ago that I realized that I really wasn’t okay and I still had a lot that I had to let go of. It was in that moment that I realized that I had to release all of my worries, the helpless feelings, doubts and everything else in between that was holding me back from moving forward. One huge deep breath and a few tears later I felt the weight of its release as I cast my cares away. I walked away feeling so much better! A trip that was supposed to just be an adventurous and romantic road trip for my birthday ended up being so much more than I would’ve ever imagined. I came back with a completely different attitude and outlook on life in general.
Over the past 4 to 5 weeks I’ve been trying to outline my goals and the first steps towards reaching those goals. I’ve been a little quiet on my Mrs. Accountabilitee social media pages and on my blog, but I’ve definitely been getting my mind right on the back end. I have so much to share and so much to do! Thank you to those that have checked in with me to make sure that I was okay or to just let me know that you missed my blogs and videos. Your kind words and love definitely played a huge part in getting me back to where I needed to be. Thank you for not giving up on me!
~Mrs. Accountabilitee
Mrs. Accountabilitee 